Resolutions.

I hate resolutions, I really do, why?
Because they never seem to happen with me but I think I may have better motivation this time.

I just sent in my portfolio for reviewing and quite honesty, I'm completely embarrassed. Be rest assured, I'm not hating on my own art but, after turning it in I realized that I really don't take my art all that seriously. I love what I do and do what I love but I look at so many artist around me and realize that I haven't put in as much effort as I can and it's not fair to those who stress and work hard to get where they are.

What was in my portfolio does not express my strengths or desires nor does it express any extra talents because well, I haven't really practiced anything outside the field of cartooning and what not, I've dabbled here and there but nothing serious. I want to make a resolution to do better this year, to make this the year where I challenge myself to learn new tricks of the trade, new mediums, and especially life drawing and architecture. *nod nod*

I now seek not praise but support and criticism which requires another change that is important, being a good supporter and critic myself. I have many people that I watch and look at their art, I've put many a good piece into favorites and yet only a handful have I commented on, sadly, most of them aren't even pieces by those on my 'deviantwatch' list. Thus, I am also trying my best to be a better watcher which means commenting on those who put effort into art and allow us to view them without charge. I do not know what others want, whether they seek only praise or criticism but I'll do my best to provide both.
I want criticism and advice on how to improve, even if you have to say my work sucks that's perfectly fine, I'm not here to be worshiped I'm here to learn and to improve, to put more effort into my art and more of myself in there as well instead of trying to shoot off projects merely because they are required.

This journal is a message to myself in a sense to keep reminding myself of my goals. I am particularly nervous because this isn't the first time that I've made this goal you see, I am a horrible procrastinator and I know that needs to stop, well at least when it comes to art.

I have three specific areas that I wish to expand and improve in, Characters, Story, and Environments. These three things make up all that I love to create and do, design and meet new characters, create stories and experience them, and create new worlds and places to explore and discover. I want to better learn how to use the tools given to me to color and bring to life my sketches which also includes learning photoshop.

For those who have supported me and encouraged me, and given words of praise, I thank you all very much and hope that you'll stick with me through this time and hopefully I will get better.

Sorry, that I write such serious journals.

Dreams~